Things we (almost) believe

There is a certain level of cognitive dissonance for most people as we go about our daily lives. There are things we tell ourselves because it makes us feel comfortable. Like that person begging on the street corner is there because they don’t wish to work, and would rather drink and shoot up heroine.

Here are some things I have been told or told myself at some point or another that I’ve wanted to believe, but on some level set off my “bullshit” radar.

  • “If you work really hard, you will succeed in anything you try.”
  • “‘Non-stick’ means food does not stick to the pan.”
  • “We washed your van before we painted it and returned it to you.” (There is baked-on deer blood on the back windows and door…)
  • “I really wish I had your resume.” (Hmm. You are sitting on the hiring side, I am sitting on the “please hire me” side. I think you are probably on the better side of the table here…)
  • “This will only be temporary…”
  • “Things will get better.”

Nope. They do, and they don’t. This is probably as good as it will ever get, in some ways. I may get richer, or I may not. My kids will hopefully become more self-sufficient, but I will always worry about them. I don’t know if I will ever get to travel the world, but I’m pretty sure my high school dream of playing trumpet in the Chicago Symphony has passed me by.

And that’s okay.

I’m still here. I’m still breathing. And today was an absolutely beautiful day.


2 thoughts on “Things we (almost) believe

  1. Sometimes dreams just take time, and sometimes they need to be adjusted just a wee bit. I always dreamed of being a writer. Maybe I’ll never be a famous author, but I did manage to finally find a way to write stuff that other people could read and enjoy. Maybe someday you’ll play the trumpet again, but for a slightly smaller audience than the Chicago Symphony.

    (And you will always worry about your kids – even when you’re 90 and they’re in their 60s.)

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    1. I still play from time to time, but that dream faded long ago, in part because other dreams supplanted it. 🙂 Writing has always been one, and has always been a big part of my life. I do, however, still play the trumpet and the piano.

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