Forget fiction Friday…

How about “Futility Friday.” As in, another day, another hope dashed.

In the time between my expressing interest and TF meeting with me to discuss the opportunity,  it evaporated.  The position is no longer available.

I will keep looking,  but it would be nice if, just once, something in life would go my way.

Yes, I should be grateful that I have three beautiful children and  a wonderful fiancée, and very little time to enjoy them.  Yes, I should be grateful to have any job, and one with pretty good benefits to offset the mediocre pay.

I am Sisyphus, and my deceit was in living a lie for thirteen years of marriage… for not being true to myself.

A wise person once told me that there is no amount of finite evil that justifies infinite punishment.

At the end of the day, I will have to keep trying to dig my way out of the situation I’ve allowed myself to slip into. It means I will have to stand up for myself more, even if I risk losing what I currently have.

I am worth more than this, and I have to stop selling myself short.



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